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Crazy

My impending office move and my impending ear surgery have been making my life nuts. On August 1 I went to the third doctor about my ear, and this one looked at my CAT scans and there was no doubt in his mind I needed surgery. Instead of scheduling it right away, though, I decided to get the office move and my Labor Day weekend trip out of the way beforehand, which meant Sept. 7, at that time over a month away. I felt find doing this because all this time I have had virtually no symptoms; it was just the weird CAT scan that made my original ENT worry even though my ear infection finally cleared. You might be able to guess where this is going. As soon as I scheduled the surgery, I started to feel stuff, like pressure in and around the ear, including in my face. I started getting freaked out and anxious about all this, wondering if it meant the growth in my ear was pressing on my brain or something. I called and got reassurance from the doctor once, but after the second call, he had me make an appointment, which is in 2 days. I've come to the conclusion now that my symptoms aren't really getting worse, but are just coming and going, and that makes me feel a little more confident that I won't be miserable during my trip (hopefully!). But if I'd done the operation at the first possible time, it would be done and over with now, and I could think about the move, trip, and everything else without the additional anxiety this ear business has caused me. Lesson learned.

I should be posting more once all this is over with!